And there it goes...again...but strangely it came around in a matter of just two months. Am I really a magnet for self-destruction...? When will I learn...probably never....should I change.. at least try...heck no..!
Standing at the crossroads again, its that time of life where I make a choice, not really out of choice. Choices make us who we really are and going by that I can feel this imaginary tattoo on my forehead which says, DUH..!
Am I really that naive and such an easy target..? Whatever happened to the street-smart, confident, independent me...where does that person disappear at times when it matters most to stick around. Why does the 'Cow-me' emerge almost instantaneously...as if its always just waiting around the corner to jump out and play the self-sacrificial part. Will I never get it...ever. Should I give up...or give life another chance to teach me another lesson which I know for sure I would never use. I dont even know where I'm headed anymore....
Standing at the crossroads again, its that time of life where I make a choice, not really out of choice. Choices make us who we really are and going by that I can feel this imaginary tattoo on my forehead which says, DUH..!
Am I really that naive and such an easy target..? Whatever happened to the street-smart, confident, independent me...where does that person disappear at times when it matters most to stick around. Why does the 'Cow-me' emerge almost instantaneously...as if its always just waiting around the corner to jump out and play the self-sacrificial part. Will I never get it...ever. Should I give up...or give life another chance to teach me another lesson which I know for sure I would never use. I dont even know where I'm headed anymore....
